4 years ago I walked into marriage with what some would call a naïveté. I would agree with that for the most part. I would probably call it more of a blind faith. But, in a way, I'm glad I had that faith and optimism. If I were more cynical and logical I probably would have passed up on Chris. I was 19 and many people thought it was a mistake. What a relief that I listened to my heart and that my heavenly parents gave me confidence in my decision.
I've learned over the years that marriage genuinely is one of the most difficult and rewarding experiences. Like any important thing, it comes with an array of emotions and experiences. Similarly to your relationship with God, your spouse knows ALL your flaws, shortcomings and secrets. One may find it difficult to love someone when knowing all the other's imperfections. I would say that is not the difficult part. The difficult part is letting your spouse love you for EVERYTHING that you are when you know you're imperfect. Being vulnerable by telling them when you fall short, sharing the pain you feel and apologizing for the hurt you may have caused. In our brokenness and honesty that is where the love is in our relationship.
“Vulnerability is the birthplace of love, belonging, joy, courage, empathy, and creativity. It is the source of hope, empathy, accountability, and authenticity. If we want greater clarity in our purpose or deeper and more meaningful spiritual lives, vulnerability is the path.”
- Brene Brown
I love that Chris has helped me in becoming my best self. He sees me how God sees me, the good & the bad. The instagram self and the sweatpant-wearing, house a mess self. He has pushed me when I needed it and held me tight when needed it. These four years have been both amazing and mundane, comfortable and uncomfortable, joyful and sorrowful, easy and difficult and many more opposites.
I am so grateful for the partnership we have formed and have loved being married to Chris for the last four years. All I keep saying in my head is "4 more years! 4 more years!"
So in honor of our 4th anniversary, I thought I'd share a few photos from my favorite moments this last year as well as some photos of our wedding day.
Highlights from this Year:
Moved to Chicago | Jack turned one | Cruise to Carribean | LP & Oceanside | New Friendships | Hosting many visitors in Chi Town | survived 5 weeks a part | Fam trip to Portland | 30 Bday trip to Scottsdale | Reliving our first date at March Madness | Christmas with our Families | New traditions | So many sporting events | 2 months of the mustache
Feels like yesterday even though we look like 12 year olds.